the big D

dear Big D,

Alhamdulillah.

you're finally here.

finally here.

can't exactly explain how i feel

now that you're here.

fully satisfied?

not really sure about that.

regretful?

not that either.

maybe just pure relief.

i eventually managed to bring you to life

despite months of tension

endless mind blocks

numbers of procrastination

return journeys to the library

the love-hate relationships with piles of written papers

some skipped breakfast and proper sleeps

screams of desperation

the maintenance of forced efforts

the nearly-fainted moments

and other things that i wish not to can't remember.
so i guess, i am truly relieved after all.

see this? that is only on my bed. you haven't seen the mess that you bring to my life.

 yes, somehow i'm very happy that you're finally here

as a dedication to my dear family

future family, future students

and everyone else whom I love.  

alhamdulillah (:

all thanks to Him.
and to everyone else
who helps me to bring you here.

please take good care of yourself

now that you're on your own

for your Judgement Days.

and please remember

my prayers are always with you

hoping that you'll be safe and sound.

so please come back fast

and bring a good news

or at least a bearable one.

sincerely,

the one who is eagerly waiting for you

but will never miss you.