those moments when...

I become grumpy.

I find it hard to smile.

I become oversensitive. even a not-really-sad MV can make me cry. I can cry even for no reason.

I feel insecure.

I get angry easily.

I avoid talking to people.

I can be very needy.

I am just uninterested about everything.

I become hormonal and have mood swings.

I complain and rant a lot about petty things.

I can be very, very mean.

I look tensed all the time.

I get hungry easily.

I eat a lot.

I... the list can go on and on.

oh well, these are the moments when I have... er, you know, that time of the month.

I guess I have to try my best not to let it affects me so much. huhu.

Post Scriptum 1:

why is PMS Pre-Menstrual Syndrom? I mean, it's not like we're having those symptoms only before that time of the month. it's usually during that time, right?

Post Scriptum 2:

Do you think you will become moody during your time of the month if no one told you that you would?

what yesterday has taught me.

kuasa, scara mutlaknya, bukan terletak di tgn kita atau pada benda-benda lain.

kuasa itu hanya ada pada Dia.

SEMUANYA berlaku dgn izinNya.

hanya Dia saja.

panic attack!

you see, i'm having a panic attack since last week. the pre-third year panic attack, to be exact. im not mentally ready to go back to Plymouth and be sane in classes. no, not now, pleaseeee T_T


but the time is running up and i think i really need to start to face the reality: i'll be back in Marjon next week and this lovely holiday will end right away. in other words, i need to attend classes, do assignments assignments assignments, read booksss, visit schools, dissy-ing. scary lah third year nih. i can feel the aura of the intense workload coming already!

*hantukhantuk kepala kat dinding sbb takut*

boleh x jgn panik sgt, fatin?

Dear Mr. Blog

Sorry I have not been around much. In fact, at one point, I had even forgotten that I actually have you. Haha :D
So sorry keh? Thank God I don't have much followers lol.
Anyway Im back, dgn azam konon xnak lupekan anda suda. xnak biarkan anda berkulat suda. kononlah. I'll try my best kay.
I love u. Okbai.

Sincerely,
Your hangat-hangat-tahi-ayam owner.

oh saye malas

can i not do the assignment ??
oh saye malas taw.
tanak buwat.
tp kne buwat. ):


once the assignment is over,
i want to have fun sampai lupe donia.

duwet oh duwet.

the allowance are finally in! yeah, finally. ble owg da putus harapan n majuk, bru la die na masok.


some friends said that im lucky that i'd overpaid a month for the university accommodation before the summer holiday as this will make me have extra money to spend now. so, as I was so happy to be org kaya baru, i'd been thinking about the things that i want to do with the money.


then i remembered the famous advice, "elaon tu duwet kerajaan tuuu."


*sigh*


so i decided to spend them only for my needs. but pls bear in mind that satistying my wants is also among the top needs for fatin, yea? hahaa ^^


but yeah, seriously. back to the famous advice, everyone has been bising2 about us spending the allowance for craps. well, they call it craps. those craps are like buying gadgets, travelling around, splurging them at the malls and the list goes on. "membazirkan duwet rakyat," they say.



well I'm not mad at them nor saying that they're wrong. in fact, they may be right.



but this is the way i see it. the monthly allowance is given by the government to support our financial needs during our study here. so yeah, we use most of the moolah for the accommodation, groceries and academical needs, like printer, stationeries and books. yes, you read it right: MOST are spent for those stuffs. then only we can spend for the craps, using the money left or hard-earned money from part-time jobs or even from cutting our budget for food. (you should know that the last option is the least favourable one for the most of us.)



so yes, we do spend the allowance to fulfil our shopping desires but God, no, we never forget the main reason why we get it on the first place. not sure if this applies to all, but i do believe most of us never forget that. or else, we'll not still be here.


then again, i'm not writing this to stop people from giving us the famous advice. well, when you have an amount of banknotes in your hands, it's a lie if you do not want to spend them for fun. i believe that this is the case for most people out there. most people do this, or at least have the intention to. so, who are lying we to ?

dear mr.blog...

so finally i created you.

so finally i published my first post.

why?

im not sure myself.

i'd been wanting to have one since like, forever, but i was too busy (ok not busy, it's lazy actually) to write anything. hahaa :D i love writing (well, used to), but im really, really bad at expressing myself using words. trust me, i am. u'll agree if u know me. so what i wanted to write usually just stays in my mind and in my heart. lazy kan? in fact, expressing myself, by using whatever means, really is my weakest point. but i guess there is a huge overcapacity in my mind right now, thus explains why you exist on the first place. yeah, sort of.

so i'll be writing about random things. pray hard that i'll be loyal to you, so that i can show how random i can be. you have now become my official port to share, flaunt, complain, rant (and etc.) just about anything, so bear with me ok. but basically, i write just because i want to.

so yeah, insyaAllah i'll see you around soon (: